“Author says change emphasizes what is happening TO us while transition emphasizes opportunity for growth within.”
― William Bridges
When I started this blog in March, I was on the cusp of my very own personal revolution. I was a broken person who was just starting to not only put myself back together (although, unlike Humpty Dumpty, I don't think I'd ever really been whole to start with) but also realizing that true metamorphosis happens only from the inside.
I was coming from a place of complete loss of direction: I had no idea what to do about truly unhealthy relationships with my boyfriend (OK, give me a break. I KNOW it sounds SO Breakfast Club but, listen, I grew up with John Hughes' movies), my career and, ultimately, myself.
Turns out it was me I had to fix first. WHO KNEW?
Yesterday, I started a new life. I could say that I began a new job...but, boy, it FELT like a WHOLE NEW LIFE. Because I had been a defeated and broken person, I had been toiling away in a job and in an environment that didn't work for me. I had come into that place feeling like a fairly intelligent, reasonably knowledge professional. My spark died a little bit every single day for over nine years and I came out feeling somehow "less than." Don't get me wrong, that was NOT my employer's fault. I just didn't know that the place wasn't a good fit for me until I had already been defeated (I have a tendency to do that kind of thing).
At the beginning of this year, I wrote down some professional goals. Well, I wrote down one goal: I wanted to work for a creative place where I could write more and travel more. I didn't think that was too much to ask.
Because I've spent the last year (OK, fine, maybe it took longer than that) working on becoming an actual adult, I was able to emerge yesterday into the light.
I felt professional.
I felt reasonably intelligent.
I felt competent.
I felt energized.
I felt creative.
Oh my. I'm working with an amazing marketing agency as an account manager. They are on a cusp of marketing that I didn't know existed until I interviewed with these guys. They are doing some extremely cool things that are taxing my brain to its limit...I don't even think I fully grasp yet how cool it is. I am thrilled to be working with them and even more thrilled that they see me as a valuable asset to the company. WHAT? WHO KNEW?
And, guess what else? I get to write more. And travel more. Part of my job includes blogging about marketing. WHAT? And writing e-books when they're relevant. WHAT?
I'm thrilled. And I am professional, reasonably intelligent, competent, energized and creative. I walked a little taller at the end of the day. And I looked up at the sky and said, "Thank you."
Transformation does not happen overnight but, after you've slogged through the mess, it certainly can make life seem a lot less messy and a lot more beautiful. And even though I am STILL up at some horribly unreasonable hour, I am awake not because I'm stressed or worried but because I'm EXCITED. I'm actually going to do a little work now.
The only real problem I have left is this: what do I blog about from My Rockin' Chair NOW since I'm all mentally and emotionally healthy? Crap. Guess I'll have to start telling corny jokes. (I know...you can't WAIT FOR THAT, RIGHT?)
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